Who CAN you trust?
EVERYBODY!?!? ANYBODY???? SOMEBODY??!? NOBODY?!!! MYSELF!?!
No I am not going through a major betrayal right now, although I do have some scars on my back you know from the knives that have occasionally landed there. Who hasn't been betrayed or betrayed someone else. It's a part of life....
The lesson here for me is to learn where to place my trust. My childhood has warped me on this one, I had a lot of trustworthy/dependable people in my life. Which was great in one sense that I don't have lots of other issues, but I tend to be naive. I want to give people the benefit of the doubt, see the good in them, but this leaves me vulnerable. This is what I know and what I am use to, so its hard to get away from that mentality. Yet over the coarse of the last few years, Lord has been gently removing the scales from my eyes. I have happened to notice so many leaders in the secular arena and in the church, fall from grace. Leaders falling from grace is nothing new, it happened in the first church when a couple lied to the Holy Spirit and fell dead on the spot. At first seeing all of this happen was very hard for me, my heart would just grieve for days and it still does when I hear of things but I just shake it off quicker. The "hows" and the "whys" come, blah blah, blah... I just need to get it in my head and heart that the only one that will never let me down is Jesus and to take people at face value.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~TRUST SCRIPTURES~~~~~~~~~
It is better to trust in the LORD than to put confidence in man. ps 118:8
The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe. ps 29:25
Do not put your trust in princes, Nor in a son of man, in whom there is no help ps 143:6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding pr 3:5
This is the first day I had totally free in a while, and somehow I started working on this blog and have added some things to it and kind of made it my own. So maybe I will use it a little more often and let you into this pretty little head of mine.
Last night I kind of had a chip on my shoulder... My thoughts were "Lord what is wrong with your church?!" I asked the Lord this because another leader in the church has fallen from grace and then there are other things. Every time something like this occurs it breaks my heart because it makes God look weak, when its man that is weak and people get hurt in the process. So I was on my soapbox to the Lord, complaining more than crying out to him. Remember the saying "when you point at someone 3 fingers are pointing back at you", well there you go I had to repent. The sum is only as good as it parts, so it is going to require individuals to work out their own salvation (with fear and trembling according to the bible) to improve the condition of the church. So that leads me to ask "WHAT AM I DOING on a individual basis to improve the condition of the church?" I know I can't change me only Christ can, but I can yield myself to him for servicing. To be very honest, that is easier said than done. Where do we begin? How do we maintain? I can always get off to a good start but fade out eventually. I know this is not a question that is easily answered. Why? Because we do not live in perfect conditions, we have jobs, families and other things necessary to daily living. One thing that I know for sure is I want to live a life totally sold out to Christ.
NO MORE SHACKLES!! NO MORE CHAINS!!!!! I AM FREE YEAH!!! HALLELUJAH!!!